I was determined for today to not be known as the day of my nans funeral but you know what? I think I'm finally ok with it all. After weeks of feeling down, also known as putting a brave face on it while your thirteen month old is awake and only letting yourself feel sad whilst she sleeps (yes that is the longest sentence ever and I'm sure the grammar police are having kittens) I finally feel like me and I have the funeral to thank for that, now there's a sentence I never thought I'd write. Sure I'll never stop missing my nan and all of the wonderful things she did for me or the totally spot on pep talks she used to give me on our weekly M&S shopping trips but I now know I can cherish these memories for the rest of my living days without the terrible weight of grief hanging around me. I look forward to one day telling Sadie all about her great nan Mavis.
As a whole July has been a pretty turbulent month in the Wild household as we've experienced more sorrow than you should ever have to endure in thirty days but as always what doesn't kill you makes you stronger (never a truer cliche spoken) and while everything hasn't been rainbows and smiles that's life and it wouldn't be real if we all spent our days living in a perfectly Instagramed village would it? Thankfully there's still been a few things that have made the corners of my mouth curl up this month so I thought I'd share them with you because who doesn't like to hear about smile inducing things? Side note before I crack on, Craig and Sadie always make me smile, that's a given.
As a whole July has been a pretty turbulent month in the Wild household as we've experienced more sorrow than you should ever have to endure in thirty days but as always what doesn't kill you makes you stronger (never a truer cliche spoken) and while everything hasn't been rainbows and smiles that's life and it wouldn't be real if we all spent our days living in a perfectly Instagramed village would it? Thankfully there's still been a few things that have made the corners of my mouth curl up this month so I thought I'd share them with you because who doesn't like to hear about smile inducing things? Side note before I crack on, Craig and Sadie always make me smile, that's a given.
Watching
I've been living for Brief Encounters, I literally can't get enough of it. We watched the first episode the night after my nan passed and I actually laughed and as anyone knows that's lost someone it's no mean feat. The following night Craig and I had to watch the next two episodes back to back, if you've not seen it Brief Encounters is set in eighties Sheffield and focuses on a group of women running Ann Summers parties. It's truly heartwarming, laugh out loud funny and most of all the perfect anecdote to everything bad that's going on in the world right now. All hail escapism, the best soundtrack and killer eighties fashion.
Working Out
When there was just four weeks to go until our wedding I enlisted the help of a personal trainer to get me in ship shape condition (metaphorically speaking of course, what woman wants to resemble a ship?) In my head I was just doing this for four weeks and that was it but George just got me - not only did he know what I wanted to achieve but he was all about doing it in a responsible you've-just-had-a-baby fashion. I've always done some form of exercise but can never say I've fully enjoyed it or have really seen results until now - I've even had comments from friends on how skinny my legs are looking. Who knew working out could be awesome?
When there was just four weeks to go until our wedding I enlisted the help of a personal trainer to get me in ship shape condition (metaphorically speaking of course, what woman wants to resemble a ship?) In my head I was just doing this for four weeks and that was it but George just got me - not only did he know what I wanted to achieve but he was all about doing it in a responsible you've-just-had-a-baby fashion. I've always done some form of exercise but can never say I've fully enjoyed it or have really seen results until now - I've even had comments from friends on how skinny my legs are looking. Who knew working out could be awesome?
Reading
Earlier this month I took a trip into Waterstones and was not only bowled over by the service, so much so that I tweeted about it but came away with two new books in hand (and one for Sadie of course). For a long time reading had become the reserve of my annual beach holiday which is reason alone to slap myself so I decided recently that this had to stop, sure I've got Sadie to look after but this shouldn't be an excuse not to read. So far I'm one book down with the other still to go, the first I read was The Luckiest Girl Alive so if you've read it I'd LOVE to know your thoughts.
Another more recent read of mine is my beautiful friend Claires new blog now my name is mummy. It's smart, laugh out loud funny and a really well put together read on parenting. She's incredibly new to the blogging game but if you do one thing different today then I urge you to go read this.
Shopping
Well it wouldn't be Cagney & Lace without me mentioning shopping would it? For as long as I can remember shopping has been a form of therapy for me and when the going gets tough it's more than likely that my credit card will be feeling the burn. This month I've not only treated myself to a few new garms from Topshop (they're so on it right now) but I've also added a mini wardrobes worth of clothing to Sadies stash too. I feel nowhere near as guilty about this though as she's recently changed sizes so was ready for all of the cute clothes, right now Mini Boden, Marks & Spencer and Next are my absolute faves. Wanna see my Topshop buys? Keep your eyes right here.
Making Changes
Finally I wanted to touch on change, change isn't always welcome but it can be good for the soul. While we've experienced all of the emotions this month losing loved ones I'm keen to take back control and make my own changes. Our grand kitchen redesign (mood board here) may be going ahead sooner than planned. Please keep everything crossed for us, I couldn't be more excited.
I've also been thinking about a little blog refresh around these parts as there's a few things that I think could be better which has got me feeling so invigorated and giddy for cagneyandlace.com. I'm a firm believer in blogs growing with their owners and as my life evolves and changes I'm keen for Cagney & Lace to come along on that journey too, warts and all. Is there anything you'd love to see more/less of? Do let me know!
What have you been up to lately?
Earlier this month I took a trip into Waterstones and was not only bowled over by the service, so much so that I tweeted about it but came away with two new books in hand (and one for Sadie of course). For a long time reading had become the reserve of my annual beach holiday which is reason alone to slap myself so I decided recently that this had to stop, sure I've got Sadie to look after but this shouldn't be an excuse not to read. So far I'm one book down with the other still to go, the first I read was The Luckiest Girl Alive so if you've read it I'd LOVE to know your thoughts.
Another more recent read of mine is my beautiful friend Claires new blog now my name is mummy. It's smart, laugh out loud funny and a really well put together read on parenting. She's incredibly new to the blogging game but if you do one thing different today then I urge you to go read this.
Shopping
Well it wouldn't be Cagney & Lace without me mentioning shopping would it? For as long as I can remember shopping has been a form of therapy for me and when the going gets tough it's more than likely that my credit card will be feeling the burn. This month I've not only treated myself to a few new garms from Topshop (they're so on it right now) but I've also added a mini wardrobes worth of clothing to Sadies stash too. I feel nowhere near as guilty about this though as she's recently changed sizes so was ready for all of the cute clothes, right now Mini Boden, Marks & Spencer and Next are my absolute faves. Wanna see my Topshop buys? Keep your eyes right here.
Making Changes
Finally I wanted to touch on change, change isn't always welcome but it can be good for the soul. While we've experienced all of the emotions this month losing loved ones I'm keen to take back control and make my own changes. Our grand kitchen redesign (mood board here) may be going ahead sooner than planned. Please keep everything crossed for us, I couldn't be more excited.
I've also been thinking about a little blog refresh around these parts as there's a few things that I think could be better which has got me feeling so invigorated and giddy for cagneyandlace.com. I'm a firm believer in blogs growing with their owners and as my life evolves and changes I'm keen for Cagney & Lace to come along on that journey too, warts and all. Is there anything you'd love to see more/less of? Do let me know!
What have you been up to lately?
Sorry to hear about your Nan lovely, it's never easy losing a grandparent but I'm sure she'll be looking down on you all with a smile on her face :) xxx
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